Summer started off awesome
kelsey broke up with me
fine were still freinds and thats realy what we both wanted
Wreck not good car destroyed but it was just a car nobodey got hurt
Now kelseys mom doesnt want me around wich is some bullshit i could exspect for her to be upset but shes taking it way to far. I did them a favor by taking her to work if i didnt do that there would be no wreck, it was raining truck in front of me slamed on its breaks. Its not like i was drunk got fucked up and was driving around that i would be like ok i deserve to be treated like crap but this just isnt fair. Then a couple of weeks later i found out something that tore me up worse than the wreck. And it was more of how i found out, and that i probley would have never known if he didnt tell me. beleive me what happend was horrible how are people just treating me this way casting me aside like im fucking nothin. Then im exspected to just forgive and forget. Will it is forgivin but alot of stuff needs to be done before she can get close to me again, and she knows what they are. I have a few things i need to do too and well... one more thing now.... And theres no control over me anymore
Im going to gone for a while vacation i get back for my party and then im leaving again for me + taylors road trip, ill be back for a while but working full time at delta airlines. Ill be moving in with zack and john soon though my mom doesnt want me too but i think i need too for my own good.
Im starting college in the spring i kinda wish i was starting sooner though. just because i like being around people, learning, for the girls mostly.
Theres a girl that im interested in ive been talking to her alot but i dont think it well work out hoping for the best tho. I got a call form an old freind of mine her life isnt were it needs to be thats for sure i last left her and she was what i would refer to as a good girl ....not anymore
but i dont need to be talking about people.
I found out that ive changed myself. I knew it when i looked into the eyes of a former love but alot has happend over this year people are exspected to change grow up maybe i did it too drasticly because im far from the guy i was last year, im turning into a guy that i realy dont wanna be like, for some reason im not looking toward the possitive anymore its just to hard i guess before nothing horrible has realy happened to me at least not all at ounce but thats life for ya i just need to look ahead.
.............I still love her, not like that anymore though, its hard to know somebody for such a long time and they not be your best freind. And she is my best freind and i love her. I sometimes regret the things i do and say and too keep myself from getting hurt i hurt others and that just comes back to hurt me even worse. Wow this thing is very long
so im done